Redeem it all

My fellow practitioners

If the texture of truth is truly the truth, then there can be no gaps. It has to be true through and through. From not having it, to trying to do something to get it, all the way to thinking that you now have it, had it and lost it, or realizing that you can't have it as an object of mind. All those phases must contain the essence of truth. What I mean by that is that what is real can't pop in and out of existence. Whether we see it as such is a different matter. But truth is true all the way through.

As I was meditating this morning, some painful memories came up. These thoughts prompted quite painful feelings in the chest. Adding some Non-Dual numbing phrases like 'it's just this,' 'nothing is real,' 'it's all an illusion,' and all the other blah blah blahs would only distort something that is trying to express itself authentically.

Equally distorting are any amplifying thoughts that would make what is a painful but valid texture of reality, more painful than it needs to be. Thoughts such as 'this shouldn't have happened,' 'I shouldn't feel this way,' or even thoughts about how excruciating this feels.

This doesn't mean justifying wrongdoings or colouring them as spiritual lessons. It can be accepted as an act of injustice or harm or whatever may have happened to you. This doesn't deny what happened.

What I am trying to say is that right now what we are dealing with are memories and thoughts, feelings and sensations. These textures are as much truth as anything else. What caused those painful memories and feelings to be here needs not be denied. Yet at the same time, those very textures zero out in and of themselves. They don't refer to a past unless there's another thought saying this is because of that. Yet we don't land on them being random either. That's not true, is it? Conventionally, we can talk about a story of the past and why we feel this way. Yet at the same time within the content itself there is a zeroing out, if that makes sense.

It's like eating an apple, for instance. Conventionally, we can say that we are eating an apple. Yet, if we are totally and thoroughly in the taste sense, you will not be able to say anything about an apple or anything at all. You won't even be able to find sweetness or sourness without referencing a thought. However, if you prompt yourself with a question like "what am I eating?" or "what does this taste like?" a thought would most likely pop up saying "it's an apple," "it tastes sweet," or even an image of an apple or maybe even both. You will likely not get a thought or imagine that it's a chair or that it tastes bitter, for example. So landing on the answer that things appear randomly is just a landing place from the previous one saying it's referring to this cause or that cause. Again, I'm not saying it's causeless either, even though you will not find one apart from the mere fact that it appeared in the first place.

I think I should wrap this up. But basically, every texture is truth appearing. Even the painful ones are truth textures. And all the distortions are also the real in its appearance, with a twist. The twist is a matter of whether we recognize it or not. If we do, it's just a truth texture. If we don't, we will be in the tangly realm of mindscapes. So realization is realizing the real in a sense.

Well then... get in touch with the real right now because all of what I said up there are just concepts right now. A memory of what's up there appearing now as the real, if you know what I mean. If not, drop it. Either way, be in touch with the ever-flowing textures of reality. And one day it will touch so totally that it will be piercingly obvious...

So my fellow practitioners, I'm as much a student of life as you are and may we be graced by the teaching textures of life and seep in the ephemeral. Have a beautiful day. Take care!

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